Wednesday, September 29, 2010

the weekend. the good and the bad.

this weekend was one of the most awesome weekends ever.
there were def a few flaws. but for the most part i loved every bit of it.
our youth group used to go to a place in Rockaway Beach every year called Camp Magruder!
Its a great little campground that has cabins, a big swing, games, boats ect.
we havent gone for like 3-4 years for whatever reason,
 mostly just being way to busy! and it being way to expensive.

we went this year! 
most of our kids havent ever been!
it was awesome to be a part of their first time going there!
 so many amazing memories! i loved 99.99% of the trip! :)

friday we rode in brother randalls bus down there!
 its an old school bus that he converted into a 5th wheel kind of thing!
it is comfortable and i love it! i would love to have one just like it to just be able to travel in!
sam, kayla, kristofer and i played phase 10 most of the way there.
 once i figured out how to play, it was fun!

once we got there i went to take a picture and my camera wouldnt work.
thats when i realized that i left my SD card in my computer.
 i was soo super bummed!
so while everyone else went to play on the beach i went to tillamook to get an sd card! :)
 it was such a awesome drive by myself. 

while i was in the truck a song by mary mary came on.
 cant give up now.
 the lyrics got to me so much!
 its an old song and ive heard it sooo many times before.
 but as i was singing along i really thought about the words!

"Can't Give Up Now"There will be mountains that I will have to climb
And there will be battles that I will have to fight
But victory or defeat, it's up to me to decide
But how can I expect to win If I never try.

I just can't give up now
I've come too far from where I started from
 Nobody told me the road would be easy
and I don't believe He brought me this far to leave me

Never said there wouldn't be trials
Never said I would't fall
Never said that everything would go the way I want it to go
But when my back is against the wall
And i feel all hope is gone,
I'll just lift my head up to the sky
And say help me to be strong

its amazing how sometimes when we think that God is just taking His sweet time.
we think that there is something else to do..
like take our life in our own hands..
give up..
all will come to fail.
i prayed a lot for the service that we had that night.
that a lot of things would be let go.
that i would remember that giving up is never even an option.
it was a good time driving there and back!

when i got back there was time at the beach.
watching the sun set with AMAZING weather.
big swing. so awesome.
and we had campfire.
that was filled with raccoons.
manny pop.
hot dogs.
and an amazing message by JR.

he talked about getting rid of the past.
for me. i know that is easier said than done.
he gave us slips of paper that represented our past.
and we were able to throw them in the fire.

i am an observer of folks.
i watched as some people hung on to their slips of paper.
like they couldnt let it go.
seeing the white knuckles..
and tears..
and hidden emotions..

but when they finally let go.
you could see the relief on some faces.
the pain disappear.
some you couldnt see at all.
but its okay.

its crazy how we spend so much time holding on to something..
that is soo painful.
we fight to keep a hold of it.
like we are entitled to that feeling of hurt.
like its become so much a part of us.
that we dont want to let go.
why wouldnt we want to let go of hurts?
or pain.. of failures?

after that amazing devotion.
we went to play games.
eat tons of junk food.
played mao!
which is such an amazing game.
so hard!
but awesome.

midnight walk to the jetty!
more mao!
then bedtime about 130.

saturday consisted of..
elias sleeping in front of the fire.
big swing.
tillamook cheese factory.
bus ride home.
an oraizo  sandwich with a marshmallow center.
so cute!

walking onto the beach.

welcome AWC! :)

kids on the boats! beautiful weather!

the fire where we threw our past!

justin on the big swing. everyone running so he doesnt kick them!

manny making jiffy pop. which we now call manny pop!

train of massages!

ORAZIO sandwich with a MARSHmallow center! :)

morning devotion.

manny carrying elias on his back.

elias was so tired. 
he grabbed a cushion off the couch.
and fell asleep in the breakfast hall in front of the fire!

bri. kristofer. kayla. kris.

mk & i.

how many boys can fit in one bed.
there are 6. one you just cant see! :)



well i found out that one of my old friends got married.
i pray that she knows what she is doing.
i pray that everything works out just like she hopes it will.
i pray.
thats all i can do.

Sunday, September 12, 2010


i know that i should forgive 70x70. i get that. but sometimes it is harder than others. especially when the forgivness wasnt asked for. or when i apologized because i knew the relationship needed it, not really because i did anything wrong. its such a hard subject.
if i didnt know better i guess i could let it lead to bitterness.
but for me, not the other person.. bitterness cannot happen!
it leaves to much baggage that i am not prepared to carry, nor do i have a desire to carry it.
forgivness is the only answer.

"i forgive you.
for me.
not you."

day 10.

day 10- songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad.

this is a harder post for me. as i dont really know titles to songs! haha. i turn on my pandora and let it play. if im mad i usually play something from my nickleback station. and any other mood its one of my others! :) haha. i listen to my colbie calliet station a lot, as well as my 'big green tractor' station a lot. lol.

Friday, September 10, 2010

day 9.

ive been really bad about posting all of these! but im not going to make up days! i just going to do them when i am able! 

Something I am Proud of Today:
i started something today that i have been thinking about doing for a few weeks now. letting go of a few things for a bit of time. not spending soo much time on the internet. on facebook. reading blogs even has become something that i do more than i should! not being on fb hasnt been that big of a deal surprisingly!

i also am giving up a few personal things right now for another cause! 

im excited that i actually doing it!


so. while i know myself enough to know that i will never be getting a tattoo.. ive been looking at them on weheartit. and i have come to LOVE ones that are quotes or sayings. i could look at tattoos all day! :) soo beautiful! here are a few of my faves!

the last one i think is honestly cute, but i couldnt imagine getting tattoos on my hands! there is just no way to cover that up! :) but i LOVE tattoos! im glad i dont have any but i love them!

Saturday, September 4, 2010

day eight.

a short term goal.

waking up early 3 days a week to go to curves or walking. 
starting tomorrow.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

day 7.

picture of someone that has impacted my life
my momma. 
i love her.