who am i?

When I consider thy heavens, the work of thy fingers, the moon and the stars, which thou hast ordained;

What is man, that thou art mindful of him? and the son of man, that thou visitest him?

For thou hast made him a little lower than the angels, and hast crowned him with glory and honour.

Psalms 8:3-5

this will happen to my first boy! no doubts.

cute. cute. cute. cute. cute.

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<3 it!

the perfect timing of a rainbow.

traffic.

usually i see it. 

and everything in me cringes.

im the girl that wants to get from a to b.

in the fastest time possible.

i dont want to wait.

instant gratification.

yes please!

as i get onto the freeway tonight.

there is obvious traffic.

oodles & oodles of cars.

we arent getting anywhere.

in any time that is convenient for anyone.

so why not just relax.

i did. 

and i took a pic.

Driving Home. Rain? Check! Hail? Check! Traffic? Check! (my pic that i uploaded to fb)

relaxing for me today.

was listening to music.

as loud as possible.

singing along.

not worrying about this stupid drive.

i didnt switch lanes for most of the drive.

even though the middle lane was going much faster than the 'fast' lane.

i just drove. 

sang.

and thought.

as the rain lightened up.

the sun came out.

i searched for the rainbow.

i looked everywhere.

no rainbow.

i started to wonder if God would ever take back His promise.

to never use a flood to destroy the earth again.

did no rainbow, mean no promise?

i started to wonder about Gods promises in my own life.

if i am a fool to believe some of them.

if i actually even was given any promises.

if its not all made up in my head.

i was so disturbed that there wasnt a rainbow.

it just wasnt there.

not even a little one.

nothing.

then out of the corner of my eye.

i saw something red.

familiar.

someone that i know.

knew?

i dont even know how to describe our 'friendship' now.

but awhile ago.

i felt like i was given a promise.

regarding this person.

and in what seemed like seconds.

i felt God tell me.

exactly what i heard before.

'trust me. even if you never see the fruits. trust me'

and as i felt that.

i look up to see the biggest rainbow EVER!

it seemed like i was right underneath it.

i wish that i would have stopped crying long enough to take a pic.

but thanking God was much more important.

even if i never see the fruits of the war.

even if it becomes 'knew' instead of 'know'.

even if it never stops.

even if no one else cares.

even if it makes me look like a fool.

i dont care.

i will trust You.

good night monday.

*source*

i woke up this morning.

not feeling well.

clogged nose.

manly froggy voice.

knowing we had a lot of people out of power in oregon.

outages.

outages.

outages.

which means overtime.

i didnt prepare myself to have a good monday.

after all.

it was a rainy day & a monday.

they always get me down.

but this monday.

besides the crazy clogged nose.

besides the manly froggy voice.

was a good monday.

i would like to say.

thank you monday!

thank you.

my day.

:)

a woman whos power had been out over 24 hours.

said she wanted to take me home and make sure i got better.

hot soup & hot tea.

and sleep.

that was her recommendation.

she said she would be calling back next week.

and if i wasnt better.

she was going to come get me. 

haha.

i had no one complain about their power issue.

mind you, most of them had been out 20+ hours.

all of them.

every single last one of my customers.

'oh, we are prepared take your time'

'it will be out until tuesday? thats fine, we can survive, we know you are working on it'

'thank you for all your hard work getting my power restored'

'my power has been out for 18 hours. but people in Japan have it much worse, sorry about being a cry baby'

:)

to my oregon customers.

while tomorrow might be a different day.

when your patience has worn off.

thank you for monday without complaints.

thanks for my day!

skype with a friend.

weddings with a friend.

may it be the same friend?

we just wont tell!

haha.

i heart pinterest.

i could honestly loose hours of my day at that website.

my day.

has been great.

sickies and all.

:)

cheers to tuesday!

nite nite.

everyday. :)

this makes me smile.

joy.

i dont know what this is about. 

i dont know if its a play, or a movie, or anything that i would even like.

but i love the though. 

everything IS relative.

choose joy.

things change.

and each person sees things different.

each person feels things different.

when it comes to life.

choose joy.

choose joy.

its MY choice.

i can either live defeated & hurt.

or choose joy.

i can either let others and life get me down.

or i can choose joy.

JR's dad preached @ Grace Point today

and he said something that i hadnt ever heard before.

his message was 

Uncomfortable But Survivable.

God lets us go through some things that are hard.

but the trials are usually all common.

others have gone through them before.

cancer.

divorce.

hurts.

pains.

bitterness.

anger.

stress.

money.

ect.

ect.

ect.

but its the devil that makes them seem like they are unique.

like we are the only ones that are going through them.

like they are something new.

its his way of making us feel isolated.

and that no one would understand.

but in that instance. 

choose joy.

understand that God knows.

and He will lead you and guide you.

He will not leave you nor forsake you.

today.

im choosing Joy.

im choosing to love.

to be happy.

even though things may not always be peachy.

but because i know the Joy giver.

i know who will give me Joy unspeakable & full of glory.

i choose Joy!