Thursday, October 21, 2010

thankful thursday.

*my momma*
she is such an amazing person. she is a rock that i lean on. she can understand me like no other. she is always there when i need her, and even when i dont. she is strong. she is a Godly influence in my life. she has been through some trials and some hard times throughout her life, but always knows that God is going to keep her. she listens to me. even when i digress onto 6 other topics before finishing my first story. she doesnt interrupt. she listens. she is rarely funny... she tries.. really hard. i give her credit for that. when she loves, she loves with her everything. she isnt judgmental. she cheats at jenga. she drinks way to much diet pepsi, and doesnt test her blood sugar often enough. she is crazy, and she is frustrating. she is always game for my crazy ideas. she is honest, and she is my favorite momma in the world. i love her. im thankful for her. so much. God defiantly bless my brother and i with the best momma in the world.

*brother & sister higgins*
why is it, that i got through my moms whole paragraph without crying. but as soon as i type in their names. tears immediately come to my eyes. i dont think anyone understands how truly thankful i am for the higgins. im thankful. so thankful. they have given me so many chances, and do overs. and yet dont judge me. brother does get a bit irritated at me and my mouth sometimes, but he doesnt judge me. im so thankful that he didnt give up on me even when he had ever right. im thankful they gave me a chance with bible quizzing. im just thankful for their leadership. i love watching them work the alter, and one of them usually has the little olive (their baby) in their hands while they are praying for folks. its beautiful to watch. they are such an example of Gods love and what being a christian is all about.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

goodbye media.

this last week has been impacting in so many different ways. so many trials, but through it all.. i learned a lot.
its amazing that even when i screw up badly.
over and over. over and over. over and over.
God still loves me.
for that im greatful.

this week my church is doing 7 days of prayer and fasting.
some of us are giving up all forms of media in our lives for the week as well.
no internet.
no texting.
no unnecessary phone calls.
no blogging.
no dvd's.
no tv.
no radio.
no news papers.
no ipods.
no facebook.

its weird because ive never attempted something like this.
im not nervous at all.

imma write my thursday post today.
and set it on auto post! :)

so with that said..
see ya next week blog! :)

Thursday, October 14, 2010

thankful thursday.

i am thankful for the small things. for the big things. for a lot!
God has blessed me so much its insane!  
around this time of year i sit back and think about my blessings a lot.
thats why im trying to do my first reoccurring blog post.
 it will be called thankful thursday! 

today i am thankful most for...

*my AWaCks*
we are a group of people. that God has placed together for a purpose. sometimes they irritate me. sometimes i yell at them. sometimes i want to kill them. but at the end of every day i love them. mary said the other day that our sunday night alter call felt like humpty dumpty being put back together again. i feel that. its the best way to describe it. i love my AWaCks.

*my job*
while i would rather not HAVE to work. i am SO thankful for my job. i speak to people every day who dont have jobs. who are losing their houses. who have to rob peter to pay paul. and then those people who do way more work than i do, and get paid so much less. i am honestly so blessed for my job! i thank God that He placed me here at the right time. 

*tall white chocolate
raspberry mochas*
its the most amazing drink in the world. it warms a small part of my soul! :) for a girl who normally doesnt like coffee, i am thankful in the little town of newport, i was introduced to this oh so amazing drink! fall is even better with one of these babies in my hand! :)

if you want to participate too, just steal the image.
if you wanna make a better one that would be great! :)
just leave me a comment so i can include you in my next ones!

Monday, October 11, 2010

bow ties + untied = incredibly hot!

guys in untied bow ties = hot!
dont believe me? 

just sayin'!

Wednesday, October 6, 2010


last night this random man came into the church during prayer. none of the men seemed inclined to go help him (or so me and becky thought), so we went to see if we could help him.

he seemed to be looking for something..

he was on the hunt for a lady that has recently started coming. he had some stuff of hers and he was leaving town. he didnt seem all to happy. he seemed nervous. he seemed set on finding her.

we explained that she usually doesnt come on tuesdays but that she usually comes on wednesdays. becky & i both felt uncomfortable about letting him know that, we didnt know if he was a psycho stalker or whatnot, but its  a public place, and he could come back tomorrow to see himself anyway. so.. *sigh*

he asked us to give her a note. i explained that i would give it to my pastor to give to her.
thats when he seemed to break down.
he kept repeating.. 
"i loved her!!"
over and over.
almost in tears.
he went on to throw some judgments at her.
but, mostly it was a heartbroken man talking.

there wasnt anything that i could honestly do to help him. i dont know the lady that well. i dont know their background. i dont know whats happening. i just dont know even who he is to her. 

i felt so bad for him. 

i dont want to know what it was about. i dont even want her to know he spoke to me. i dont want to get involved. 

but i still felt so bad for him.

it was as if his heart was seriously breaking at that very moment. he kept saying he was going very far away. never said exactly where. i cant help but wondering if he is okay. i pray that Gods hand protects him and everything works out the way it should.

there was so much hurt in his face.
i dont know the story behind it.
and its probably better that way.

but i think ill continue to pray for him. 

Monday, October 4, 2010

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Where are you going?

Where Are You Going?
Dave Matthews

Where are you going? 
With your long face 
Pulling down 
Don't hide away 
Like an ocean 
That you can't see but you can smell 
And the sound of the waves crash down 

I am no Superman 
I have no reasons for you 
I am no hero 
Oh, that's for sure 
But I do know one thing 
Is where you are is where I belong 
I do know where you go 
Is where I want to be 

Where are you going? 
Where do you go? 

Are you looking for answers 
To questions under the stars? 
Well, if along the way 
You are grown weary 
You can rest with me until 
A brighter day and you're okay 

I am no Superman 
I have no answers for you 
I am no hero 
Oh, that's for sure 

But I do know one thing 
Is where you are is where I belong 
I do know where you go 
Is where I want to be 

Where are you going? 
Where do you go? 

Where do you go? 
Where are you going? 

Where do you go? 

I am no Superman 
I have no answers for you 
I am no hero 
Oh, that's for sure 
But I do know one thing 
Is here you are is where I belong 
I do know where you go 
Is where I want to be 

Where are you going? 
Where do you go? 
Tell me, where are you going? 
Well, let's go 


ByMaya Angelou   
"A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ that a
man should have to seek Him first to find her."

When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not shouting "I'm
clean livin'" I'm whispering "I was lost, Now I'm
found and forgiven." 
When I say... "I am a Christian" I don't speak of this
with pride. I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide. 
When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not trying to be
strong. I'm professing that I'm weak and need His
strength to
carry on. 
When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not bragging of
success. I'm admitting I have failed and need God to
clean my mess. 
When I say... "I am a Christian" I'm not claiming to
be perfect, My flaws are far too
visible but, God believes I am worth it.
When I say... "I am a Christian" I still feel the
sting of pain.. I have my share of heartaches, so I
call upon
His name. 
When I say ... "I am a Christian" I'm not holier than
thou, I'm just a simple sinner Who received God's good
grace, somehow! 
Pretty is as Pretty does...
but beautiful is just
plain beautiful!